This doesn’t have ANYTHING to do with diabetes or Jag, but I will throw a small update in at the end. 😉 I’ve been thinking a lot about, and losing sleep over physical and emotional connections lately. Maybe due to the ongoing pandemic, but maybe just due to life? Maybe sharing it with all of you will help? I wonder why some people have a connection (whether that’s physical or emotional) to us while other’s don’t? This thought made me wonder if that’s important? As I’m in the dating world, I think it is, there has to be that chemistry if we are trying to build a romantic relationship (believe me, I’ve done the research), but maybe it happens in those non-romantic relationships, too?
I realize I do have some basis on this type of stuff. The Secret by Rhonda Byrne talks about feeling the way you want to, or desire to, feel, which makes sense and I’ve had some success with that, but what about those connections we can’t dismiss or take up space in our minds? Even change how we allow our feelings or emotions to effect us? Why does that happen? Granted we allow it, but, sometimes, these occurrences come from someone you pass, to a crush, to an ex. What makes them stay with us?
Some of the relationship self-help people tell you to not let people take up space in your brain, but I have to go back, why do they? Further than that, why are some so hard for us to let go? I suppose you technically give yourself to someone you have built a relationship with, but some of those people that “stay” in our brains aren’t always people who with we have a relationship. Obviously, some of it IS emotionally based…But what about the rest? I’m not sure I have an answer, but, maybe, you guys do? Maybe it’s as Brené Brown describes on Oprah.com, we “derive sustenance and strength from the relationship,” or maybe just that person or some people?
All of that being said, it seems like the social distancing pandemic (and our cell phones) may be worse for us than we realize. I have had a serious need to simply be in space with others. When is the last time you have seen someone smile? You can’t see anyone smile with those masks on…although, I do try to do that, but who’s to know if someone sees it? Women’s Health magazine has a title on it’s cover of their September issue referencing how screen time effects us, not that this is a new idea, but when are we going to start listening? I certainly hope we all start coming around.
On the rest of life, I have moved from the Pacific Northwest to San Antonio, TX, my job contract has expired, so I am looking for a new gig. I’ve decided the new gig could be anything from my own business to a part time job to pay the bills or a new contract with my current employer. I am working on updating my real estate license to Texas, and it’s going slower than hoped, but I am also accepting bookkeeping clients and applying for jobs. Something will happen soon!
Jag is well, although, I feel like it’s a bit too hot for him at the moment (it is the dog days of summer). I have researched a couple of swimming spots for him and plan to go see if there’s actually water in them. I think he needs some play time, and it would be nice for us both to have a little space from each other (as much as I love him).
Please leave your input if you have any and I hoe all are staying healthy and socially filled in the current world.